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Well, this morning, they said hat i hadn't spike a a fever in 48 hours and that the echocardiogram came back clean (meaning there was no bacteria around my heart).

I had developed the sepsis from pneumo-strep bacterica. This was the same kind of bacteria that I had gotten back in April, but since we were able to catch it much much sooner, it wasn't nearly as bad.

They gave me another round of IV antibiotics and sent me on my way home at about 430 this afternoon.

Overall, this was a much easier trip than the last few, we caught it early, so it wasn't that serious and i was in and out of the hospital in four days.

Because it was so quick and not as serious it still doesn't feel like it was that big of a medical deal to me. But I think opening up this blog to everyone, and sharing what has been going on has been a bigger deal than anything else. That may be weird to you, but I am pretty used to medical chaos....what I am not used to is letting people in on it and sharing what the Lord is teaching me or sometimes feels like not teaching me.

Who knows where this will go from now. I pray that the Lord will continue to guide my heart and words on this interesting path of lupus and life and encouragement and challenges and at times...confusion.

9 pm update

hey all!!!

so it turns out that i have a pneumo-strep bacterial infection. which is actually the same bacteria i had last april when i had septic shock. but praise the Lord because we caught it sooner this time. I will stay here until thursday night so that the IV antibiotics can run their course.

on another note, a little bit of fear was creeping in today. I was told that I would be leaving the ICU tomorrow and possibly going to the telemetry floor, which is where I got gangreen last time I was in this hospital. I don't really trust the doctors or nurses on that floor to provide adequate care. I am trying to trust the Lord with this, and trying to remember that ALL of this is in His hands, completely and totally.

I am becoming a little impatient and frustrated just with the circumstances and getting tired. So restored joy and patience is what I will be praying for tonight.

And I will be praising the Lord for answers and a plan for recovery.

Noon update

My blood pressure is stable and i am all the way off that medication! yay!

Havent had a fever in the last 12 hours, yay!

They need me to stay here until they run a full course of IV antibiotics on my because as they doctor said, I 'have a nasty bacterial infection coursing through my bloodstream."

Had an echocardiogram today to check if the bacteria was around my heart, but havent heard back on that yet.

thats all for now! thanks for praying!

oh my gosh

kinda freaking out that i just linked this blog to facebook.

definitely not my thing.

when the Holy Spirit prompts, He prompts.

maybe you can pray for confidence and humility too please? :)

Kaiser, sweet Kaiser...permanente that is

Well, in the interest of keeping all if my faithful friends and people praying for me updated, I thought I would share my blog with you, and I will update it as we learn.

Driving home from slo after a purely fabulous wedding, that was beautiful and fun, I started to feel crummy. Started taking my temp and it went from 98.7 to 103.2 in two hours, so bry drove me straight to the hospital, praying for me and keeping me calm.

I started throwing up (dano I brought you home firestone but that was the only bag in the car....I think you catch my drift. Lol. Sorry boo) and we called to let them know we were coming and got seen right away. Did blood cultures, had a spinal tap that came back normal! Yay. Had a Head CT, which was also normal. Got admitted to ICU because of my medical craziness and really low blood pressure and high heart rate.

yes we did ask the nurse if there was a fan i could sleep with.

Fever kept spiking then coming down overnight.

Today the blood culture showed a bacterial infection, but they don't know what kind of bacteria it is yet.

Did an abdominal CT, and that came back normal.

So for now, they are trying to keep the blood pressure stable and find the source of the bacteria.

If you could pray for my heart to be dwelling and resting in 2 Corinthians 4 I would be very blessed by that.

Also for my family, that they would be able to rest in the Lord.

And for work, I want to get back! :)

Thank you all, I will keep you posted!

Praise the Lord, Praise the Lord!

My last few posts have been recalling the events of a year ago. But today, I want to Praise the Lord!!!! (well, everyday...but would love for you to join me in it today)

Because I have not been to the hospital in 6 months, 3 weeks and 6 days! wahoooo!

my dear friend Noelle and I chasing after birds at the beach house after 6

months of hospital free!

I praise the Lord for the times that I am blessed to be without pain, and without hospitals because it makes me so excited for an eternity to be spent that way! And lets be honest, it..... funny.... I was going to say gives more freedom, but freedom in Christ is found even when I cant get out of bed.... was going to say comfort, but some of the times that i have felt most comforted have been when i am crying out to God in the hospital. haha, guess i got humbled when trying to be funny.

its like a win win. ( i was humbles, you didn't have to tolerate my miserable attempts at being humorous)

Ahhhh, Sweet November

Today is November 11, but I LOVE November 12.

on November 11 of 2009, I had been transferred out of the ICU at Kaiser in Redwood City. I had just found out that I had a mass on my brain and had an

other miraculous recovery.

I wake up from a coma and try to break up with boyfriend (of four months at the time)

On November 12, 2009...he told me he loved me. I ask him if he is sure. He says he is. I ask him why. He tells me why. I ask a few more questions. I tell him we will have to go out to dinner to celebrate when I get out the hospital. He says he can't wait.

We wait four more days until I get out. Then three more days until I have enough strength to walk from the car to the restaurant. Then we talk.

me and Bry out to dinner that night

This amazing man of God tells me how grateful he is for what we have been through over the last 3 weeks. We talk about how much we have both learned, grown, prayed, been challenged and surrendered.

This begins a pattern... a pattern of him trusting the Lord's sovereignty above anything and everything else. Of him pointing me to it when I get lost, of both of us learning to trust Romans 8:28 with all of our hearts. Of learning that our good does not mean our comfort, of learning that love is so sacrificial.

I thought it was crazy...that he would choose to love someone that had so many medical issues, that could/would probably die young, that would have medical bills and health insurance bills and a boatload of other issues, why would he choose to love me, of all people? Thought it was crazy.

Thought about it a lot over the last year. Realized it wasn't crazy. It is a small glimpse into the love God had for us. Whyyyyy on earth would God choose to save and love me? Me who has sinned since birth, and will go on doing so until death. I... who amongst a myriad of other sins fail to proclaim the great glory of God in the fact that I am even still alive. Why choose me?

Grace and Love are beautiful aren't they?

So thanks Bry, a year ago tomorrow you told me you loved me. Thanks for taking me out and letting me take a picture that night, but mostly, praise the Lord for the grace and mercy and love he has given you, and me.